"Some day you will die somehow and something's going to steal your carbon"- Parting of the sensory, by Modest Mouse
I was just reading about existentialism... This to be exact. Anyways, being reminded of the idea of "the absurd" I started wondering...How many people actually believe that human existence is "absurd"? Just out of curiosity, do you believe that your life is absurd? Or maybe it isn't entirely absurd...are aspects of it absurd? Or do you find meaning in everything?
It's strange to see fog in the middle of January (in North Dakota). I just went out and picked up a few groceries. At the edge of vision the whole world melts into shades of grey. It feels like a dream. I like it.
Anyways, I'm going to try out the wok that's sitting in our cupboard which we almost never use. Stir fry some beef. Yummy. I'm also going to try to whip up some homemade grenadine syrup just for fun. After that, kick back and read about feminist communication theory and research methodology. What a life, eh?
My wife left for a conference last night, so I'm going to be fending for myself for the next week. I have to admit that it's already kind of lonely around here. I've spent most of today eating, cleaning the kitchen, and watching movies.
It's strange really, I believe that my wife and I are more "newlyweds" now than we were last year when we first got married. Last year we had a whole bunch of friends to share our time with. We had a lifestyle set up that we didn't need to acclimate to. We worked at odd and sometimes opposite hours of the day. It all added up to everything seeming kind of world weary and mature- working hard for our money to pay the bills on time.
Now we're somewhere where we don't have any close friends, just each other. We're both teaching assistants at the university so our schedules are pretty much the same (although who knows what will happen this summer). We're students again, which makes me feel much younger and less world weary (although teaching at the same time is bizarre, as I have said in other posts). It's really quite great. We get to spend so much time together and I have time to cook and sleep and don't have to wake up at five in the morning. I know we both REALLY miss our friends and the big city, but it's looking like this "trying time" in our life together is giving us a chance to deepen our relationship. I like that.
That being said, it has made me a teensy bit dependent- so that now as my wife is off conferencing, I am sitting at home not sure what to do with myself. Eating donuts and watching movies. Whatever, another week of school approaches.
Yeah, I'm writing a blog here- It's been a long time...blah blah blah, I can't make any promises to write more often- yada yada.
That's out of the way. Whew, awkward.
I think the strangest thing about being back in school, after having been out working for a year, is a return of Christmas break. Sure, I had some time off during Christmas last year. About 4 days. This year I've had 3 and half weeks. I've watched at least 6 seasons of various television shows, read a novel and a few short stories, and baked more than I ever have in my life. Not to mention that since we had so much time, my wife and I ended up at every extended family gathering available.
Now, I'm sitting on the edge of a new semester and I'm asking myself, "Do I have to?" And yes, I do have to.
I was thinking back to the jobs that I held during the summers between semesters in college. I worked at an amusement park, I worked at my college, but most importantly...for two days, I worked in the Spam Mobile...
Those were two very interesting days. They gave me a bright yellow SPAM shirt and navy blue visor and I went to work serving people Spam-ples...*gagging on cutesy corporate phraseology*
I'll never forget my time on the Spam Mobile...and everything it taught me.